Posted by: Kara Luker | July 13, 2018

A holy wildfire

A couple days ago, I was reading an email devotional* when one line nearly exploded in my mind: “Now, the people of the world don’t have spiritual discernment.” It’s not because they are inferior in any way, but simply because their spirits haven’t yet come alive to Christ and as a result, they can’t see His Kingdom or understand it. This means that their sole glimpse into the person of Jesus is through us – not what we say, mind you, but how we live. This had honestly never dawned on me before.

If this is true, then it makes sense that the transformation of our lives is about far more than just our personal fulfillment. It’s about the release of God’s glory in tangible ways for the world to touch and see. This is why a whole new battle starts up when we become Christians. Satan certainly doesn’t want any of us saved for eternity and will do his darndest to prevent it, but what he really doesn’t want is for us to fully understand and inhabit the gospel. Because when we do, people will see in us the answer to their deepest cravings – an immovable, unchangeable place of acceptance and rest; not the mirages of the world’s promises that keep them striving for something that will evaporate the moment they arrive. They will want it – this peace we have – and we will share Him. That is a wildfire our enemy can’t afford.

So let’s continue to draw close to Jesus and be changed into His likeness, not by trying harder but by resting in His complete work that made us whole, and become a fire lighting up His heart and Kingdom for people who wouldn’t otherwise be able to see… and believe. 

*Joseph Prince’s July 10th Daily Grace Inspiration

Posted by: Kara Luker | July 4, 2018

Death, where is your sting?

While walking around the yard barefoot and chatting it up on the phone, I suddenly felt a sharp prick on the arch of my foot. The rose bushes stood right beside me so I figured it was yet another offending thorn. A glance at the bottom of my foot, however, revealed a bee… which was still attached to its stinger… which was now attached to me. My conversation continued while I stood on one foot, staring blankly at the struggling creature and wondering how to dispatch it, preferably without actually handling it. Eventually, a solution emerged. I flicked the thing off, removed the stinger and finished my phone call. I’m not allergic to bee stings, so fortunately I didn’t swell up or die. Instead, I was left with a barely perceivable bump, followed a few days later by a fierce itch, and then nothing at all but the questionable habit of wandering around outside barefoot.

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“Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?” 1 Cor 15:55

I liked the sound of this verse, but never gave it much thought until the bee was stuck in my foot. The “sting” part suddenly got my attention. Any creature with a stinger can produce fear, pain and potentially death. Without it, that same creature loses its power to harm us. BUT, if we don’t realize the stinger is absent, the now-harmless bee or wasp or scorpion will still have power over us, leaving us just as fearful and paralyzed as if true danger were present. And, even if we knew that the stinger were gone, the sight of an approaching bee might still incite panic and all its reactions.

Basically, that’s all satan’s got now: intimidation based on his former stinger. He had been armed with the power of death through sin, which was strengthened by the law. But then, in an unfathomable act of love, Jesus took into Himself that deadly stinger and all the violently toxic venom intended for us; to destroy the likeness of God in humanity. “He did this, so that he could experience death and annihilate the effects of the intimidating accuser who holds against us the power of death.” (Heb 2:14-15 tpt) He rendered the devil impotent, like a bee without a stinger. The problem is that some of us still think he’s got it and some of us “know” he doesn’t, but live in doubt of that fact. 

Do we still sin? Yep. Will we still experience a physical death? Definitely. Do they still carry a sting for those who have accepted Jesus’ sacrifice? Absolutely not. “But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.” (1 Cor 15:57) It was a complete work. It is finished and can never be made otherwise. Sin loses its hold because we are now deemed righteous, safely hidden in Jesus and free from condemnation. And death loses its hold because we are secured for all of eternity in His love by His overcoming power. But we are in no hurry to get there because once we understand these truths, the fear that has enslaved us falls away and we are launched into the freedom of heaven while still on this earth.

No doubt about it, Satan will continue to buzz loudly nearby with intimidation and fear, as though our life were in his hands; threatening us with condemnation for our sins and angst over pain and death. But, as we step into our Christ-given inheritance, we will see that the devil does not have the final say. And we will begin to walk freely in this new life of Jesus, maybe even in our bare feet.

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P.S. Hope you have a great 4th of July! What a great day to celebrate our freedom in Christ as we celebrate our country’s freedom 🙂

Posted by: Kara Luker | June 26, 2018

Not our problem?

Before I finally made the effort to prune the rose bushes at our rental home, I had certainly like having roses, but they belonged to my landlord – not me – and I considered their well-being her problem. I think it’s safe to say that I even judged her for their state of decline while I sat by doing next to nothing. But then I felt compelled to step in and invest myself in their care. After some fairly hard work, countless thorn pricks, watching and waiting, I came see them differently. They are now my babies; adopted into my garden family (which is lucky for them, since my family is the only part of our yard that I actually tend to). I check on them every day, getting giddy when I see fresh, leafy growth and new blooms, and find myself concerned about the couple that haven’t resurrected as well. Of course they still technically belong to my landlord, but I have a new sense of ownership that probably bodes well since we all know owners usually take better care of property than renters.

Which got me thinking. If we see ourselves as renters on this earth, we will likely brush off the world’s decline and all its hurting people as God’s problem – not ours – and we might even judge Him for the way He is handling it. But if we pause for a moment, we might hear a whisper that says we are stewards here; that this creation and its people have been left in our care; that we are needed. If we heed that whisper, we might be compelled to invest our efforts – rather than just our voices – in a need that we see. Maybe that investment will establish a sense of care and ownership because where our treasure is, there will our hearts be (Mat 6:21).  Where our hearts are concerned, there is always a desire for something more pure and true than what we can accomplish on our own, so humility just might follow.  And maybe – just maybe – that humility will swing wide open a door for the powerful grace of God (1 Pet 5:5), who makes all things whole, to be manifested in this broken world through His presence in us.

It is not about a finding a cause. It is about being the hands and feet of Jesus on this earth, by His power and because of His love. As we invest our lives on behalf of others, the domain of what we consider to be “ours” will be stretched and expanded until those who were on the outside – those who were “not our problem” – are brought to the inside, where we see them as our own. That kind of care can’t help but revive this struggling garden we live in; each of us faithfully tending our part until we give it back to its rightful Owner upon His return. And then He will gloriously restore it and, with great joy, give it right back.

God blesses those who are humble, for they will inherit the whole earth. Matthew 5:5

–While writing this post, I was reminded of Tattoos on the Heart, a book that affected me more deeply than any I’ve read (apart from the Bible, of course). I can’t recommend it enough.

Posted by: Kara Luker | June 19, 2018

You belong

Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. Ephesians 1:4

I’ve been thinking about my last post. Though I was born into a family that loved me, provided for me and cared for my needs, I never felt like I belonged – not in my family, not in any given community or, if I’m honest, not even on this earth. So while not literally an orphan or foster kid, I lived in a constant identity crisis as though I were. I fully believed my acceptance was not yet secured and it seemed dependent on factors outside of my control (and it certainly was if it meant making good choices and behaving well), which made me feel helpless and angry. This deep insecurity showed itself in many facets of my life and led me down the destructive roads of addiction, promiscuity, eating disorders, self-mutilation… anything, really, to keep me from facing the fear that I just wasn’t worthy of love.

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Then my heavenly Daddy came into my life. He said He loved me and that my past didn’t matter. It sure did sound nice and I accepted it to a degree. But I worried about the present; about the fact that I still didn’t have it together – and might never. So I spent many years on my best behavior, trying to show Him I was worth keeping. He spent many years demonstrating remarkable patience and heart-wrecking kindness for the Sunday School version of me with ever-present and (very) thinly veiled dysfunction. It empowered me to start pulling out some of the shame-filled junk rotting inside of me, which always elicited a response of deep compassion and gentle truth. It gave me courage to eventually let out my darkest, ugliest, angriest parts – as well as some of the most intimate and tender parts. When you’re afraid of being rejected, it’s a terrifying risk. But let me tell you that I’ve never, ever gotten anything but love in return. Over the past couple decades, He has shown me over and over (and over) again that He loves me… period. Nothing I can do – good or bad – can change the deep, raw, living love He has in His heart for me. As a result, I have been convinced… and transformed.

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For the first time ever, I’m coming to know that I belong – first and foremost in my Daddy’s household. But also in my physical family, in this family of believers, in this community I find growing around me. I’m not saying I have it all together, because I don’t. But that’s the whole point. We are loved, as we are. As Brene Brown explains it, “Fitting in is about assessing a situation and becoming who you need to be to be accepted. Belonging, on the other hand, doesn’t require us to change who we are; it requires us to be who we are.” Because we are already accepted. Our place is secured and there is nothing in this world – or beyond it – that can change that. It is a sweet, beautiful place of worthiness and connection; of unchangeable security. You belong. Do you believe it?

 

 

Posted by: Kara Luker | June 13, 2018

The reckless love of God

After getting back this past weekend from my first cruise ever (which was also my first week ever without phone service or WiFi), I couldn’t wait to meet the 9-day old foster baby of our dear friends and to see them as parents – another first. They were tired, as is to be expected, but clearly smitten. To quote the new foster mom, “She is so totally worth it!”

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This baby girl was removed from a bad situation, with demonstrable neglect before she was even born. She followed a few older siblings into the foster system. Her biological mom has not given her a name. While our friends would love to adopt her and provide a secure home on the forever side of things, there is no way to foresee what the future holds. Will the mom continue on her current path and eventually lose her parental rights? Will she get it together “enough” to get her baby back, but still lack stability and the ability to nurture her? Or will she have a transformation that enables her to be the parent this baby needs?

Most people would say that it is wise in such a circumstance to guard your heart… to care for the baby but not bond too closely, with the clear potential for heartbreak and all. But my friends have decided to be all-in. Whether she is their forever child or not, they believe she is deserving of the selfless, reckless love that will give as freely and bond as tightly as one whose story is securely tied to theirs. Because, no matter the outcome, it really is. Maybe not in the way we tend to see things – with a strong need for a certain kind of payoff – but in the way God does, with His understanding of the powerful, transformative, eternal qualities of love that doesn’t hold back for fear of pain and doesn’t cease growing once planted.

So our friends have given the baby a name. They are taking an abundance of pictures and sharing them in the fashion of proud new parents. They are staring at her for hours on end as if it she is the greatest thing that ever existed (because, of course, she is). And hour by hour, all through the day and night, they are setting aside their needs to meet hers.

Reminds me a whole lot of the way God loves us. And by us, I don’t just mean the people who are going to be happily settled into His care forever more. I mean all of us. The ones who will turn from Him and choose to settle in broken places, lacking stability and nurture. The ones who will openly reject and mock His care, thinking they can do a better job. The ones who won’t realize they are welcome in His home no matter their history. If you think that doesn’t break His heart, you don’t know the heart of a father.

And yet He is all-in with every single one of us, pouring Himself out for us – into us – without regard for the pain it could cause. Because that’s what Love does. If we will let it in, even the tiniest seed, it will change us. We will be tied securely to His story and all the security, rest and joy that come from belonging to a parent who demonstrates – hour by hour, all through the day and night – that kind of selfless, reckless love.

Posted by: Kara Luker | June 1, 2018

So much more than a crutch

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.  Isaiah 53:5

I’ve heard it said that Jesus is a crutch. If it means that we are held up when we are so broken we can’t do it ourselves, it is a very true statement. For He allows us to throw upon Him whatever weight we can’t carry in whatever form our weakness takes, never forcing His help but being ever available.

But the comparison stops there because while crutches can only provide space for healing to occur, Jesus takes what is broken and makes it whole by His very presence. My life is evidence of that. An x-ray of my busted up, broken down, cracked, crippled existence would have revealed damage that looked beyond repair. Maybe to me or this world, but never to Him.

He came for people like us, broken in body and mind and spirit. He gave His own body and His own life that ours would be healed, and united us with His boundless Spirit – for any and all who come to Him. None is too far gone.

He won’t just patch us up or try to rehabilitate us to our former health, but He will restore us to His original design. It is nothing short of miraculous but, fortunately, that is His specialty.

It takes humility to lean on Him; it is not something to be ashamed of, but a special kind of courage born of the Spirit. And the results – oh, my beautiful goodness, can I just say that I am walking around in a soundness of mind and joyful wholeness I never thought possible? And I know with all my heart there is so much more to come.

So let us lean on Him and look to Him, our great Physician, and be able to declare like David, “O Lord my God, I cried to You for help, and You healed me… You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. Lord my God, I will praise you forever.” (Psalm 30:2, 11-12)

Posted by: Kara Luker | May 26, 2018

Wherever He leads

Flying Island

Many years ago while praying, a picture appeared in my mind’s eye. A flying island, perhaps similar to that in Gulliver’s travels, appeared in front of my home. It was clearly operated by the Holy Spirit and He was inviting me to come along. Where He was going, I didn’t know, but I wanted to join Him wherever it was. When I raised my arms to be lifted up to the island, I realized that my legs were rooted deeply in the ground, like that of an established tree. It was an impossibility to go.

What I understood from the picture was that even though I really did want to follow the Lord wherever He led, I wasn’t free to go because I was still very much rooted in the world and its mindsets. There are probably many applications for this that I’ve yet to see but I can’t help but think that self-focus is a biggy. While not necessarily evil, it has kept me from going where the Holy Spirit leads for many reasons… expectations of what my life will look like, control of how things will play out and a need to fully understand before moving forward. Of course there is the very self-centered fear of what people will think of me. If I’m focused on my own hopes and fears, I might miss the greater things He wants to do, or if I’m focused on my own ability, I’ll never be able to step into the unlimited ability of God.

Clearly not an overnight process, so I tucked it away and kept trucking. Apparently, bit by bit, the roots are getting loosened because this past year my wants started to shift. My journal entry from October says, “Instead of wanting to have Him breathe life on the things in my heart or give me purpose, I just want to go where He is going and be where He is.” It was one of the most liberating and exciting thoughts I’ve ever had.

I hadn’t realized how self-focused even my faith had been. My tenacity to hold onto certain things I believed God had spoken seemed holy and right… until I realized that they had become more fixation than faith. Not that God can’t still accomplish those things if He desires, but I just got plain tired of missing out on the Life that is going on now – and every day in His Kingdom – for the sake of my expectations (and my fears).

My journal entry wrapped up with, “Of course, it is one thing to see it and announce it – and another to be transformed into it.” That’s as true a truth as any I’ve known. But transformation must be happening on some level because my whole perspective is shifting as my roots gets transplanted from the kingdom of self to the Kingdom of God. I’m feeling fulfilled like I’ve never been before, and expectant – not for a particular thing, really, but for wherever He is going to take me. I cannot wait until the day when I lift my arms and He pulls me with ease to join Him on the adventures of a lifetime.

I remember being incredibly impacted by the last couple chapters of the book, Seeking Allah, Finding Jesus. I highly recommend it.

Posted by: Kara Luker | May 22, 2018

Purposeful pruning

The home we rent has a garden in the side yard consisting of nearly 40 rose bushes. When we first lived here, the landlord would come on occasion to grace them with her green thumb, giving them a deep pruning, a dose of fertilizer and a good soak. For whatever reason, that hasn’t happened in a few years. Either she is less attached to the garden than I thought or she is unaware of my ineptitude with living things.

It’s not that I don’t try. I’ve done a modest pruning now and again when they start looking like beanstalks reaching the heavens, but the fear of their blood on my hands has kept me from attempting anything further. With the neglect showing more each month, however, a potentially botched attempt began to seem wiser than none at all.

Being clueless on the topic, I took to YouTube to learn how to do a proper pruning. The most helpful video I found was of an older, frontier-ish guy who seemed too manly to be fussing with roses but who struck me as knowledgeable and trustworthy. He explained that the best approach is also the simplest: figure out what belongs and cut the rest away. What belongs, apparently, are a handful of stalks (stems? branches?) that form the shape of a vase, leaving space in the middle for the plant to breathe and do its thing. This will keep disease at bay and cause life and health to break forth (he may not have used that exact language), along with plenty of blooms… which is really the purpose of a rose bush.

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When I set about to do this (far too late in the season, mind you), I found that most of the plants were an endlessly tangled mess of thorny branches bound by vines that had planted themselves beside the roses’ roots. A daunting task indeed. But as I began to trim things back and get a better view, I caught a vision for what belonged and was propelled forward until nothing remained but a short, skeletal frame and a large pile of discarded branches. Because of my newfound understanding, though, I no longer felt like a murderer of beautiful things, but a sculptor helping them become what they were meant to be.

It took many hours over many days (and countless wounds from their fearsome thorns) to prune them all, but it turned out to be a wildly enjoyable task and the results were restful to my eyes and surprisingly beautiful (in a minimalistic sort of way). After fertilizing, watering, mulching and weeding, I held my breath for a couple weeks.

You can imagine my great relief when the bush I pruned first and the most mercilessly (I honestly thought I might have killed it) showed signs of life with a few new leaves… and then newly formed branches covered with bountiful leaves… and now buds that are going to burst forth in no time at all. I have so much to learn, but am fairly confident that the rest of the bushes will follow suit.

But of course there was a bigger takeaway. God is so faithful to prune us – not because he is ruthless or careless with our lives, even though that’s what it feels like at times, but because He loves us. He knows that if He fails to pare down our lives to the heart of what belongs – with great skill at the appropriate time – the neglect will eventually show and not only keep us from thriving, but from fulfilling our purpose. I’ll probably share soon what this has looked like in my life, but in the meantime, I pray that we can all rest in the hands of our masterful Gardener who is artfully caring for us so that we will be able to bloom like crazy, for His glory.

P.S. I really wish I would have taken pictures of this process, but didn’t since I thought I would probably destroy them. Next time…

Posted by: Kara Luker | May 18, 2018

Holy ground

The past couple of weeks since writing this post, I’ve been pretty much transformed. The post vaguely referred to my adult son who is struggling in his current set of very difficult circumstances. I won’t go into details since it’s his story to tell, but I came to realize that it wasn’t just about his heart and life, but also about what God wanted to address in me. I wanted to rescue him from the struggle to ease his pain and mine. Since I couldn’t, I felt helpless and afraid, which was no help to him and didn’t line up with my life as a believer.

Through prayer and a whole lot of worship, the Spirit broke through and showed me that our temporary comfort would be counterproductive to our future freedom. Rather than sit idly by in fear or try to escape the difficulty, I realized He was asking me to lean into it with all my strength. And so, by the powerful grace of God, that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. The more I have thanked Him for this hardship and verbalized trust that He can use it for good, the clearer it’s become that we are on holy ground – right in the hands of the God who loves us – and in that place, no weapon formed against us will prosper. Not only that, but that the weapons formed against us will be used instead to assault the kingdom of the enemy who set out to destroy us. I’m not just saying this to make myself feel better. I believe it with all my heart.

When Jesus was resurrected from his death on the cross, it wasn’t a return to the old life He lived before the cross. It was a new kind of life; one death could no longer touch. It couldn’t have been accomplished by climbing down off the cross or clinging to his old life. He had to go through the cross to get to the eternal stuff; the stuff that could no longer be assaulted by death… and so do we.

Isaiah 43:2 (NLT) says:

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.

This verse doesn’t talk about aversion or escape. It talks about deliverance. It’s what the Israelites experienced when Pharaoh finally released them from slavery, only to surround them with his powerful army and back them up against the Red Sea. There was no going back and no going around. They had to go through… but there appeared to be no way to do that either. They cried out to Moses that they would have been better off as slaves in Egypt than to die in the desert. This sounds to me like the cry of our hearts when we get backed up against impossible circumstances, where the desire for escape so often dwarfs the desire for freedom.

But as you probably know, although there was no way through for the Israelites in natural terms, their deliverance was waiting. God split the sea in two (bet they didn’t see that coming!) and they walked through on dry ground – holy ground. Not only that, but their attackers were drowned in the same event that was orchestrated for the Israelites’ destruction.

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Because of their hardship – not in spite of it – they got to see God move. And because of my son’s and mine, I have too. So far my deliverance has been one of the heart, rather than of circumstances (although I did get to talk to my son on the phone for the first time in about a year, which felt as miraculously wonderful as the parting of the sea). My understanding of God and His ability to save has been transformed in a pretty dramatic way and I am downright excited to see what lies ahead. I’m pretty sure the enemy is kicking himself for cornering us because it pretty much backfired. I’m thinking that’s something he’s going to have to get used to.

What are your impossible circumstances? May I humbly suggest that you are standing on holy ground? What the enemy has meant for evil, God has meant for good; to grow your heart into a deeper understanding of His love and power and to thwart the enemy’s plans for your life. Press into Him with all your strength; your deliverance is at hand.

You Make Me Brave by Amanda Cook

 

Posted by: Kara Luker | May 11, 2018

Higher and better

I wanted to share a story that might help illustrate my last post about learning to let God lead. My son, Cole, had been in South Carolina attending the Navy’s Nuclear Power School for two years and we missed him like mad. After graduating, he was fortunate enough to get a month off around Christmas before heading to his submarine job in Virginia. It made sense to me that most or, heck, all of his time off should be spent with me, his adoring mother. And the rest of our family, of course. There were other things to do during that time, he explained, but he agreed to meet up with us in Florida for a week where we would be spending Christmas with John’s side of the family. Sure I’d like more, but I was grateful for whatever I could get.

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Blurry bliss

The time came to see him and my heart leaped a thousand times. I quickly adjusted to his sleeved arms (sooo many tattoos) and soaked up every minute of his quirky nature and dry humor. Seeing all three of my kids together in all their sweetness and laughter made my heart melt on an hourly basis. It had been a long time.

With our Florida trip coming to an end, I asked (okay, maybe begged) if he could come home with us to California to see my side of the family and extend my happiness… just a wee bit longer. Unfortunately, no, that wasn’t going to work. So I revised my plan in order to suck more life out of our time together. The rest of the family would head back to California while Cole and I lingered a few more days in Florida. Cole agreed. I was happy. It was set… until it wasn’t.

That night, I felt a tug on the reigns. God was speaking and it was clear. I was supposed to go home. It would mean saying goodbye to Cole earlier than absolutely necessary; a very sad reality, especially in light of that fact that we knew he would not have any time off for entire year – at least. But I’d experienced God enough to know that His plans are good, even when I don’t understand. So I let Cole know of the change in plans. And that was that.

The following day, Cole had a change of heart. The things that had felt so pressing suddenly looked to him like they could wait. And he could indeed accompany us out to California. The week (or two?) that followed can only be described as pure magic. I don’t think I’ve ever had so much fun with my boy as I did during his visit home. There was so much lightness and laughter. He was able to see my family (who helped raise him and loooove him), as well as some very dear friends. He also got to visit his great grandmother, a last opportunity since she passed away after his return to the Navy. He was even willing to override his extreme aversion to having his picture taken to allow us to take millions of pictures to capture the joy of the visit.

This unexpected and utterly divine experience didn’t come from my attempts to make it happen (all of which all fell flat on their face), but from following the leading of God, who wanted to give me so much more than the couple extra isolated days with Cole I was willing to settle for. As it turns out, he hasn’t gotten leave for well over a year and I’ve only heard his voice once or twice since then, so that time together has been a sustaining gift. Not just for me, but him too, I think, to tuck away for the long journey he’s embarked on.

While following God’s lead doesn’t always provide such immediate delight and gratification, it does always make space for the very best… giving us so much more than the “good” we would have settled for. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:9

 

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Chase & Tattoos

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Together again

Thanks for indulging me in the sentimental photo journey 🙂

 

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